WARNING ....... LONG POST!!
I guess, for me, the definition of "forever" was about 8 years! I have felt a very strong pull the last six months to move closer to where I grew up. Yes, I am living in the town where I was born, but I grew up less than a mile from the ocean. And even though I am only 15 minutes from sitting on the warm sparkling sand and listening to the mighty waves crashing on the shore, I rarely drive down there..... that is until about 6 months ago when I felt my future change in front of me.
We have two" family" condos "on/near the beach" that have been rented the past thirty years. We (the kids and I) made the decision to sell the one with the better view, but it is a block away from the beach shore. And that caused some of us to look at the remaining one on the strand - it sits about 200 feet from the ocean. It's small, in comparison to where I live now. I would have to downsize over 50% and that is a lot! Plus there is no garage (underground parking but no individual garage where we all (yes we all) store our overflow of "stuff". And it's on the second floor of the building (there are only two floors) - so getting in and out takes thought and planning. Elevator down, keys to everything, locked parking garage for safety - little hurdles that at times have felt like big hurdles.
But the more thought I gave it - nearly daily for SIX months, the more I felt the pull to move. Am I quite ready at this stage of my life to downsize that much? No - not really. But the opportunity is now and if I am going to do, I want to do it because it's what I want, not because I have to or need to. I want to do it on my terms. I DON'T NEED the four bedrooms I now have. I DON'T NEED a backyard to care for (although I will miss my ever-giving lemon tree)... I DON'T NEED all of the STUFF I have accumulated over the past eight + years. (OMG - I so don't need all of that!)
And that is when the fear sets in... how do I reduce my living space 58%? (it's the more about the THINGS that fill that space - not the space itself!) Where do I store the cleaning supplies and tools and all of the things that are now in cupboards in my garage? What do I do with three sets of dishes (I know - really??) And the list goes on. Sometimes the fear is so powerful that it has stopped me in my tracks and I have tried to talk myself out of this crazy idea. I have a wonderful home in a great area so..........why???
But..... then.... I realize it's only crazy if I don't follow my heart. It's only crazy if I become my biggest obstacle. It's time to change my life for the better..... so..... the baby steps begin......
I have been scouring Pinterest for storage and decorating ideas - how to live in smaller spaces etc. There are so many great ideas out there and I am going to implement all that I can.
I do WANT to simplify my life. I WANT to be free of the stuff that fills up my space now. I WANT to surround myself with the room to explore the things I love to do. What do I really WANT AND NEED?... A safe place to sleep, a comfortable atmosphere and wonderful space to to just "be". I will have all of that and more. And from my little deck I will be able to see the ocean and the pier that I walked on from the time I was a little girl. I can sit on the deck with my mug of coffee in the morning and watch the seagulls dive for breakfast. I can relax on the deck in the evening and enjoy the majesty of the setting sun while sipping a glass of wine or grilling dinner. Every time I think of where I will be in about five months (give or take) I feel such peace - the peace that comes with knowing that this is a path I am meant to walk.
I am SO excited!!!
Currently all plans are on hold as there is a tenant there until the middle of August. Then the remodeling will begin. There is a lot of work to be done from renovating bathrooms and the kitchen to redesigning a few things and adding new flooring and a fresh coat of paint that make the years of wear and tear vanish. I am eager to set up a great kitchen to allow me to continue the cooking and baking that I love and my office/craft room to have that perfect space to carry on my volunteer work with organizations and explore some new crafts while embracing the ones I still love. And there are some life changes that will additionally occur in the middle of all of this, but it's just a few detours in this journey called Life... This all feels so right even in the face of some challenges!
I am following my heart and taking care of me!
(what a concept - it's about time I figured that out!)
So..... if I am quiet for periods of time over the next few months, it just means I am busy with plans. But I will pop in and update you as I can. I plan to take pictures of everything once it is empty and then show the transformation over time. And of course, once I am settled in, there will be the final reveal! I CAN HARDLY WAIT!
It's going to be the best time of my life!Pin It Now!